Da Lyfe Of A Confused Teen

Thursday, 7 June 2007

Reminising bout the times

It is thursday..and im bored..going out inabit with ma bredrins (friends) doing what i normally do...Oo yeah thnx for the comments..they are appreciated :D.....

A few minutes ago, I was listening to a song by 112 called "Let this go". It reminds me of a time in my life when I was goin through a "rebellious" stage. It was between 15-16..a lot of stuff happened then...I experimented with stuff like cigs, bud (or weed) and started to notice boys hehe. That song particularly reminds me of my first real relationship..if u could call it that.

Anyways i started cheking (slang for dating) one boy who i shall call DA (stands 4 Dumb-Ass hehe) wen i was just turning 16. He was the same height as me, light skinned, 19 and slightli below average looks-wise...Urghh...thinking back i don't KNOW why I got involved with him...I guess I just liked his status and loved the fact dat his feared by most people...I loved the fact that if people started beef with me...they would have to deal with him...i guess it was the power...

When he first saw me, he kept annoying me asking for my numba and that..i wasnt even interested because he wasnt my type AT ALL lolz...but he kept asking and pursuing relentless and i finally gave in...At first, i was worried because i knew my friends didnt like him because:

They knew i could do better....loolz
Every1 knew of his temper...
They thought he's one of them types that would try and cause trouble between me and them

He treated me right though despite the worries..kept buying me stuff..took me out to an amusement park and spent so much money on me..he always seemed to have money...i had an idea where he got it from but i didnt imply....

Anyways about 6 weeks later, he started pressuring me into have sex with him....me = nuh uh no way because i held high moral standards (I still do). At first, he was fine bout about it..he'll b like "Ok babe, wait til your ready". Then as time went on, he would keep asking and pressuring and gettin aggresive until finally he SNAPPED. Wen i mean SNAPPED, fully started shouting, throwing, scaring my naive young self...yoooo i thought he was going to hit me but i didnt give him a chance to lolz because i got angry myself, stormed off and went to my friend's house. Boy try and apologise and i eventually accepted..but in my heart, i knew i didnt really want to be with him...that in a way i was using him because of all the stuff he gave me (Yes i was a lil gold-digger..but it was unintentional :S) so next day, i called him and broke it to him. Needless to say, he wasnt happy..getting dumped by a 16 yr old looolz...aah he got over it...he gt himself a white girl a week l8r.

Anyways the song "Let this go" by 112 reminds me of what i said to him while i was dumping him.

Verse 1]Girl I don't understand, stand the reason why, why you act this way
What did I do, tell me what the problem is
I don't wanna see, wanna see you leave
Wanna let you go, I just wanna find a way to work it out
We've been through so much, good and bad times
Girl I did you wrong, you forgave me then we tried to start over
I apologised tried to make it right, so many times
Now I think its time to let this go
[Chorus x2]And even though I love you and you've been with me for so long
And we thought that we could make it work but we were wrong
But neither one of us wanna be the first to say goodbye
Baby I think its time to let this go
[Verse 2]Girl it's hard for me to tell you that it's over
I hate feeling this way
But I know you know things just haven't been the same
We always said that we, we would tell the truth
No matter what it is, can't continue to pretend our heart is in it
I’m waiting for you to see, the reality
We at a dead end, there no way to go unless we gonna to be just friends
I love you so much, never thought that I would ever have to say
That I think its time to let this go
[Chorus x2]And even though I love you and you've been with me for so long
And we thought that we could make it work but we were wrong
But neither one of us wanna be the first to say goodbye
Baby I think its time to let this go
[Bridge]Oh girl
What happened to the love
What happen to the girl
The girl I fell in love with
I never thought I’d been the one to say goodbye
I’m sick and tried of the arguing and I don't wanna do it again
Again, woo

The words highlighted in red and bold are EXACTLY the same words i used to dump him (Well not exactly..I used two or three different words but they more or less the same)...I swear to God that is sooo weird...and only heard of the song 4 months ago...and i dumped him back in august 05 hehe aint that wierd looolz....

posted by Diva-sta @ 05:40

8 Comments:

At 7 June 2007 at 08:50, omohemi Benson said…

Thank God you left him just in time,no one should force you to do what you don't want until you are ready.
I like 112
At 7 June 2007 at 09:34, Admin UD said…

Nice blog. me liking the tongue thingy on ya profile iamge!
At 7 June 2007 at 10:59, Anonymous said…

hey girl, liking ur blog o, rily nice. Good thing u left him , i went thru a very similar thing. So that got me reminiscing 4 real. He doent deserve u if he cant play it on ur terms jare( lol, yoruba sturvs....hope u understand).

Thanks for stopping by mine!!!!!!
At 7 June 2007 at 12:24, exschoolnerd said…

hey sweets i saw ur comment on my blog..thnx for stopping by..it was much appreciated...
good for u for sticking to ur guns and not giving in to ur ex's demands for sex...i know its hard that yall hv gone ur seperate ways bt guess its for the best...love ur layout by the way...did u do it urself?
At 7 June 2007 at 17:02, BlogVille Idol said…

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At 8 June 2007 at 02:07, laspapi said…

thanks for stopping by, diva-sta. Nice posts on your blog. I'll be back.
At 8 June 2007 at 02:28, diary of a G said…

so you figured how to put ur pic on ur profile....nice...now maybe u can share ur new knowledge...lol
thanks 4 the visit to my me blog
So u've been to T.O huh?
still wouldn't mind visiting the UK
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